Thanks to everybody who has been so caring and put up with my outbursts over the last few days. But now I've got all that out into the open, life seems much better and calmer again.
My one time male ‘best friend’ once predicted that, if I didn’t leave my husband, within 5 years (ie by about 2002), I would be an alcoholic. Well, I didn’t and I wasn’t and I’m not. I haven’t even been on anti-depressants for over a year now. I’m still here, and on balance, I probably laugh at myself more than I cry. When things get bad, I retreat into my head and into my computer. I used to worry that it made things worse, but now I realise it’s cathartic – especially when I can bounce the results off other people. I write what I feel, and I think ‘I can’t possibly post that’, but I do, and it’s fine.
So, I have my cats, and my garden, and my singing and my books, and the odd half bottle of red wine (but only the odd one!) And ‘with all its sham, drudgery and broken dreams, this is still a beautiful world’. Ultimately, the most important relationship in my life is the one with myself. Once I’ve got that one sussed, the world will be my oyster.
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I’m still standing
by husbandorcat
@ 26 Jan. 2006 - 09:43:59
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In answer to your question, yes, I do go back and read commments on old postings!
In response to your latest posting, I am so glad we have got that one sorted out, as you write it you have got so much going for you that you should be in your element, I wish I had so much to fall back on when relationships or life gets too much for me.
 | PurpleDragon [Member] 2006-01-27 @ 21:06 |
Predictions can be altered if you are given enough notice :-) I'm glad to hear that he was wrong (on the alcoholic one at the least!)
Your last couple of sentences summed it up. I think, in the end, that is all we have - ourselves. We cannot rely on other people to make us happy. We have to do that for ourselves.
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