I have spent a lot of the last week fighting my dragon in private. Some of the comments I’d been getting were making me angry and frustrated that I couldn’t express myself better and explain my feelings in ways that people could understand. In the end I thought perhaps it wasn’t such a good idea to share my feelings so indiscriminately.
But then I thought about the kind and caring people out there who have made comments which have really helped. Why is it always the hard and hurtful comments that stick in my mind? So I thought that maybe I would just pick myself up and try again. Because sometimes just keeping on trying for the sake of it is the only way to get through things. Maybe if I leave the dragon alone for a while it will give me some peace. I have exhausted myself with fighting it over the last few weeks. I know this doesn’t mean it will go away, it’s not ‘sorted’, but I’m just going to try and let it go for a while.
Quote from my ‘Tao’ book, day 153:
‘It is a… mistake to lose self-esteem simply because you have some flaws. Looking at your shortcomings and taking steps to eliminate them should be viewed as a dispassionate project. You are not worthless because you undertake to rise above your faults. That description is only for those who never attempt to perfect themselves. We all have a perfect core, a special self inside. That purity is perfect and holy; therefore, no one I worse than another.
‘We are all on this planet simply to reach back into that pure self. When we reach that spirit, there are no flaws and there is no blame’.
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Another Saturday morning (4:30)
by husbandorcat
@ 03 Jun. 2006 - 04:23:12
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I'm sorry that you have had hurtful comments. I can't imagine why anyone would want to do that, but I suppose there are some not very nice people around. Just don't take any notice of them - keep writing. I like reading your blogs because they help me understand not only you, but myself also.
 | husbandorcat [Member] 2006-06-04 @ 12:18 |
I don't suppose they were being deliberately hurtful, just a bit insensitive.
It's probably just me being paranoid, as usual.
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