I want to play a dangerous game - but what other kind is there? What’s life without a little pain, a little riskiness? Kandamoist once said kindly to me ‘what you need is to have sex with someone nice who you fancy and who fancies you’. Well, he would. And it’s true, of course. But I also want someone to sit in cafes with me and hold my hand, someone to stroke my hair when things get bad - or even when they're good (and they'd be good anyway just because he was there). Someone whose kisses will... hell, I can’t say anything about that that isn’t a cliché. Someone to laugh with, who’ll listen to my crazy ideas and bounce back a few of his own. Someone to tell me I’m beautiful.
I need too much. And maybe I’ll get some of that, and maybe I’ll have it just for a short while, and then life will be as it was again, and I’ll be crying into my pillow and staring at the moon. And who knows, I might write a poem or two. And then I’ll take a deep breath and get back to work.
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Dangerous games
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but when you play dangerous games, you are never sure that the outcome is what you wanted. Some cope some regret. and you?
 | husbandorcat [Member] 2008-01-27 @ 10:30 |
Never regret.
At least it generates lots of material for blogging 
i thought you would have noticed that by now.
the regrets are always to do with the game not going far enough.
hypothetically, you are right
| husbandorcat [Member] 2008-01-27 @ 11:00 |
All future projections are hypothetical.
they can only be based on an evaluation of past experience.
Read my PhD thesis.
Only Cassandra can see the future - and who takes any notice of her?
| husbandorcat [Member] 2008-01-27 @ 16:44 |
According to the third noble truth, the way to avoid suffering is through conquering desire.
who am I to argue with the Buddha?
But I don't think I'm ready for a life without desire this time around the wheel.
I think his definition of desire, as well as suffering is different to the way we use it
 | CassandraofTroy [Member] 2008-01-27 @ 19:09 |
A necessary, but not sufficient, definition.
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