I nearly lost it at the PC meeting last night. I was so tired and so angry with myself. I kept riffling through my ring binder, trying to find stuff that I thought I’d meant to take but hadn’t, or looking for stuff that wasn’t in the right order. I should have gone through it and sorted it all out immediately before the meeting so that everything was in the right order. And I kept losing my agenda as I turned pages over and then having to try and find it again.
Sounds ridiculous, doesn’t it? How can it possibly be that complicated, I mean, how can I keep losing stuff? It’s crazy.
I felt very disorganised and inefficient and inadequate. And tired. I’m tired now. How am I ever going to get through life and get anything done? The Chairman said ‘Have a good bank holiday’, but really I will have to work most of the weekend.
At least I’m going to Cambridge tomorrow. That won’t be particularly restful as I’ll be with friends, some of whom can be a bit trying at times, but at least it will be a break, something different. And it will be good for me to be with other people.
I felt pleased with myself yesterday because I got quite a lot of things done, I had to go into town because I needed to do some stuff at the bank and get my train tickets, to get to London for a meeting on Tuesday and to and from the Eurostar on Thursday and Sunday. The Tourist Information office sells return tickets to London (actually, to Brighton via London) for £11 off peak, much cheaper than you can get even on-line, I guess they think the only kind and honest thing they can do for any tourists who end up in Bedford is to give them a cheap and easy way of getting somewhere else :)) I met my daughter for lunch and even did a bit of girlie browsing in M&S and Primark.